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Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Starting Over... AGAIN.

So I keep telling myself that I have not failed until I have given up trying.  I keep losing 20-30 pounds and gaining it all back and I recently hit 200 pounds... NOT ok.  So I'm trying to moderate, make decent choices and be mindful... staying as active as my schedule will allow without counting calories.  ...so far it's not going well... I live with an enabler and I live a crazy life that makes getting healthy terribly inconvenient.  But I'm not giving up.... Stay tuned or be my friend on MyFitnessPal.com.  :/
This was taken of me last week and I was mortified.  My clothes are all too tight, I feel horrible about myself and yet depriving myself doesn't work in the long term either.  I'll keep trying and post again soon... please pray for me that I find the strength to get healthy before it's too late. 

Sunday, July 4, 2010

just a quick note

Things aren't going as I had planned this vacation. I've had to endure people who want to "treat" me to things and gave up til I get home. I have tried to run twice and my foot has just killed me both times. I don't know if I have another stress fracture or what so I've stayed off it except for the incredible amount of walking that I have done at amuzement parks and San Francisco. I'm afraid to see what the weight gain looks like at this point, but I know I will get right back to it next week after I have been home a day or two. ugh.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Well... not what I wanted, up 2 again, but not too bad.

Well, things are going ok. I was 162 this morning which is up 2 from my last weigh in... but considering all the graduation cake and dinners with friends from out of town and all that, I think it's ok. I leave on vacation in a week and 3 days and I'm pretty excited. I am not weighing what I would like, but I am feeling much better than I did. I am running the entire 5 miles in the mornings with my gorgeous husband Michael and then I am still managing to get myself to the gym so far this summer and I'm pretty proud of myself for that. Over the last 2 weeks I haven't been able to exercise as much but I have been right on track this week! This morning I had to throw a piece of cake in the trash to keep from eating it, but I feel great that I was able to do that. So not much to write since I haven't been exercising much until this week and I have had a hard time watching my diet as well. I'm finding that pre-cooking chicken breasts so that I have them to make sandwiches with for lunch is satisfying. New music is helping motivate me and the weather at 5 am has been perfect. I'm a little nervous about my exercise and eating when I go on vacation. I'm going to put some healthy snacks in my suitcase so I can have them if I need them and I'm going to try to to a Nike+ 5 mile run on week days... it's really gonna be hard though. I'm looking forward to enjoying the oxygen rich air of the coast and the lack of hills. :)

Monday, May 24, 2010

160.0 almost half way there.

Had a couple of "non calorie counting days" this week, but did pretty good on the weekend. Even on my "non counting" days I still managed to be reasonable. So I'm not terribly disappointed in myself. I'm not losing as much as I'd hoped but I'm only running about 4 days a week and last week I only made it to the gym twice, mostly because I have so many other things going on... graduations, school performances, potlucks etc. There are only 3 weeks left til my vacation and I truly hope that I can keep exercising and eating right while I'm in California. Usually I don't "diet" on vacation and it sets me up for a huge set back getting started again when I get home, but I want this time to be different because I won't be at my goal yet. I am seeing a difference in my waist FINALLY! and that is the ultimate reward. It means I'm getting close. I pray a lot for Gods help with my willpower and guidance. I'm having some emotional issues come up at home and I am having a hard time not eating for comfort... but so far I'm doing ok. Anyhow, prayers? please? I need all the help I can get right now. I'm running almost the whole 5 miles... with the exception of 2 of the hills... just not ready for them yet, but I am starting to acclaimate to the rest of the route... doesn't feel like I'm killing myself anymore, but it's still hard and I do feel a great sense of accomplishment which puts me on the right path for the rest of the day to be productive. Well, I guess that's all I can say. Would love to hear from ya.

medium squishy.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Ok, so my weight is: 167 and I think it’s important to note that it’s “that” week when I am retaining water… so hopefully that’s some of it. …but honestly even though I'm not showing a loss I’m pretty happy about it. It means I haven’t been overeating as much as I could have. J and that, once again, is an accomplishment. Especially with my cravings for chocolate this week! I’m a rock!

After Monday I had a relatively good week. I was careful and satisfied and I didn’t run on Wednesday due to the weather being so yucky, but I didn’t want to run Thursday and I tried to anyway… which is a small accomplishment there. went for a jog and had accidentally put on a pair of large yoga pants instead of mediums. I had to come home, they were falling off. I didn’t know weather to be tickled or angry. I chose tickled.

Bought some new music for my iPod too. That’s always motivating.

The weekend was difficult as usual… I had a a bbq to get through on Sunday I ate a lot of food, but not as much crap as I could have. I ran on Sunday to make up for a day I may have to skip this week. I skipped the church potluck, and I do have to attend another potluck at the school tonight! (God help me.) If I could just remember that bloated feeling BEFORE I eat the food. Maybe I’ll write the word “think” on my hand or tie string to my index finger or something. It seems so silly to me that it‘s so difficult, but it is. 4 weeks until vacation… and then the rest of my life to try and stay healthy. I’m working on “mindful eating.“ The fact that I’m almost half way to my goal shows me that I’m doing well. After all… “We haven’t failed until we’ve failed to try.” Michael is doing really well by the way and being fairly supportive of me still. :)

I would really love for my friends to leave a comment every now and then.

I also wanted to add... that I set a new goal of running the Garden of the Gods 10 Mile next June. Looks to be a gorgeous time! Also... upped the run again today... now we're running all but 2 of the 4 inclines... and at 6,035 feet that's somethin! :)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Bad Bad Bad weekend.... no weigh in. I'm a chicken.

I skipped my whole weigh in out of pure dread. I know I have been doing basically pretty well... but I had a wedding on Friday with lots of yummy "just too tempting" foods. It didn't help that I was starving... I should have eaten before I went. Then Saturday I was in a funk and over ate. Sunday was Mothers Day and we bbqed ribs, corn and pasta salad. Then had chocolate cake and angel food cake with strawberries and whipped cream. I thought I was back on track yesterday and even took a class at the gym for a total of 3 hours of cardio/strength work... but I ended up eating all the left over junk from the day before plus Chipotle (damn it) and was so bloated last night... again, wondering why I can't remember that feeling BEFORE I put the crap in my mouth. Next week is "Shark Week" (as Michael calls it when I'm on my period) so I'm probably bloated some from that as well and hoping that I can cut back and make it up to myself by moving forward and not living with the guilt of past sins. I will weigh myself again next Monday to see where I'm at even though if I'm good between now and then, I still expect to see a gain. :( I only have 5 weeks left til vacation... although I plan on being careful on vacation and continueing to eat healthy and exercise even after I get home from California. Anyhow, a bad weekend has me feeling bad... but the junk is gone. I'm afraid of myself at this point because we have a pot luck and a bbq coming up and Emmas graduation, as well as a graduation party for a friend. It's a rough month for me again. Please keep me in your prayers. Mornings and afternoons I'm not having problems... it's the evenings that are killing me. God help me!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Special Occasions = a small set back... no biggie

Well, 167.6 at weigh in this morning... We had a birthday on Thursday, a dinner date with friends on Saturday and a First Holy Communion celebration for a friend on Sunday and some stress in between so I didn't eat as well as I should have. Also, I didn't do any exercising on Friday because I didn't get any sleep Thursday night. So all in all I'm pretty happy it's only a pound and not worried about it at all. I'm sure even with our Tuesday and Friday "special occasions" this week I will still make progress before my next weigh in. Tomorrow is the anniversary of our recieving our son, J.T. and Friday is a cousins wedding. I am motivated not to give up, not only by my vacation next month... but also because I am feeling my pants get loser, and I'm starting to be able to see a small difference in my body. I think I'm doing a pretty good job. I wasn't able to run this morning... Michael dropped a welder on his foot and we think his big toe is broken. I'll try to run AFTER the gym... we'll see. I do really want this. I really want to be healthy, and fit. If I can get through this week and the week of graduations at the end of the month... the rest should be fairly smooth sailing. :) Pray for me guys, ok?!